on the inside: 2024, as heard by Joshua.
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(a mixtape)
on the inside: 2024, as heard by Joshua.
I have spent much of this year in ways that are very different than I have in the past. One thing that hasn't changed, though, is that I have spent a good bit of time listening to music. Where I do it has changed -- walking, rather than cycling; at home, rather than at the club. But either way, it has remained constant that bits and pieces of what I listen to have lodged themselves in me.
Over the past few years, I have found myself more aware of the projections that people around me cast on me -- and, occasionally, if I am so lucky, of the projections that I cast on them. I have a mixed relationship with these projections: they often reveal things about me or others that I wouldn't have had access to otherwise, but on the other hand, I sometimes find myself frustrated that what is projected onto me can be so bright as to temporarily blind the reality of who I am.
In each of these yearly mixes, I get to do more of the enjoyment of projecting -- in both directions. Whatever I hear in this mix is probably not entirely what the artists of each song wrote; what I hear reflects me, too. And whatever you hear in this might or might not reflect the moments that made up my year. All three of us -- the original artists, me, and you -- get to be in it together, though, whether we like it or not. With some luck, we'll each find something new in ourselves, and maybe even in each other.